Yesterday was my half birthday

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And I wanted very much to post something that really came from within me, as I did last year and again six months ago. All my writing comes from me (tautology, there) but it's more or less admixed with what I think people want to see. I really wanted to post a story that was purely about what I want to write.

I didn't have any such thing to post. I'm still writing, but I think my pace has slowed. I find myself feeling as if I'm letting someone down by that, but, really, this is all supposed to be about having fun. I have the unfortunate habit of beating myself when I think I'm not being productive, but I know from my childhood that being beaten, whether by my parents or internally by myself, makes me *less* productive, not more. If I can take the pressure off I can be more creative.

And that's quite enoutgh about the inside of my head. My point, and the reason I'm actually posting this, is that I think I'm not going to be writing as much as I used to. I'll still be writing, in both my fandoms, and I'll use the summer to write rough drafts of several longer things which I can then polish and post later. (Including some not-porn. Lately it seems all I post are drabbles and porn.) I've kept some stories back to have a semi-consistent level of output, but I think I'm just going to post them and let my output reflect how much I'm actually writing. I thought I should say something to this effect, so people know where I am as they consider their friends list lineups and so on.

Besides, if I'm writing less one thing I can do is read (and comment) more, which is doubtless a more socially useful thing for me to do anyway.

Comments

[just-ann-now.livejournal.com]

Hello, darlin'! Happy belatedhalfbirthday!

About the writing: unless what you are writing here buys the bread to go into your babies'mouths, it's supposed to be fun. It won't be fun if you're beating yourself over the head about if you've done it or not. Relax!

I'm not a prolific writer by any means, mostly drabbles and other silliness posted very sporadically. I go long periods (well, maybe a week or so - but proportionally to the length of my works that's a long time, right?) without writing. To make things worse, when I'm in a not-writing phase I do lots of reading and commenting; for example for the MEFA's, and find myself reading stuff so gorgeous it makes me want to give up writing completely. Aaargh!

But then someone will come up with a plot bunny or a nuzgul or whatever you want to call it that will tickle my fancy, and off I go. That happy successful fun-writing inspires more; and then nice supportive comments like icing on the cake or unexpected presents and whee! it all starts again. So don't worry about your muses, or your output projections and production schedules. It's supposed to be fun, right? And it will be again.

[rubynye.livejournal.com]

How could I have missed this when you wrote it?

At any rate, late but all the more heartfelt for it: thank you for telling me this. *huggles*