Yesterday was my half birthday
Jul. 3rd, 2005 12:23 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
browngirlAnd I wanted very much to post something that really came from within me, as I did last year and again six months ago. All my writing comes from me (tautology, there) but it's more or less admixed with what I think people want to see. I really wanted to post a story that was purely about what I want to write.
I didn't have any such thing to post. I'm still writing, but I think my pace has slowed. I find myself feeling as if I'm letting someone down by that, but, really, this is all supposed to be about having fun. I have the unfortunate habit of beating myself when I think I'm not being productive, but I know from my childhood that being beaten, whether by my parents or internally by myself, makes me *less* productive, not more. If I can take the pressure off I can be more creative.
And that's quite enoutgh about the inside of my head. My point, and the reason I'm actually posting this, is that I think I'm not going to be writing as much as I used to. I'll still be writing, in both my fandoms, and I'll use the summer to write rough drafts of several longer things which I can then polish and post later. (Including some not-porn. Lately it seems all I post are drabbles and porn.) I've kept some stories back to have a semi-consistent level of output, but I think I'm just going to post them and let my output reflect how much I'm actually writing. I thought I should say something to this effect, so people know where I am as they consider their friends list lineups and so on.
Besides, if I'm writing less one thing I can do is read (and comment) more, which is doubtless a more socially useful thing for me to do anyway.
I didn't have any such thing to post. I'm still writing, but I think my pace has slowed. I find myself feeling as if I'm letting someone down by that, but, really, this is all supposed to be about having fun. I have the unfortunate habit of beating myself when I think I'm not being productive, but I know from my childhood that being beaten, whether by my parents or internally by myself, makes me *less* productive, not more. If I can take the pressure off I can be more creative.
And that's quite enoutgh about the inside of my head. My point, and the reason I'm actually posting this, is that I think I'm not going to be writing as much as I used to. I'll still be writing, in both my fandoms, and I'll use the summer to write rough drafts of several longer things which I can then polish and post later. (Including some not-porn. Lately it seems all I post are drabbles and porn.) I've kept some stories back to have a semi-consistent level of output, but I think I'm just going to post them and let my output reflect how much I'm actually writing. I thought I should say something to this effect, so people know where I am as they consider their friends list lineups and so on.
Besides, if I'm writing less one thing I can do is read (and comment) more, which is doubtless a more socially useful thing for me to do anyway.
