A Slice of Stream
Nov. 28th, 2005 11:13 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
browngirlAs in Stream of Consciousness.
I hope I can retain this feeling for the rest of the month, because this morning I'm happy to be alive.
Having just had 5 days off might have had something to do with it, of course.
My cabbie this morning and i chatted about the "reason for the season" as it were. He told me about a Jewish couple who were his neighbors for years, and how they'd come over Christmas morning for breakfast and gifts, and he and his family would go to their place for the first night of Hanukkah. I love stories like that. When I was a kid in the church I was raised in I was taught that people don't remember "the reason for the season", which is often true, but the people they blamed for it were non-Christians who were somehow taking away from what was *really* supposed to be a Christian celebration. I find that logic severely flawed, needless to say.
I had a thread of thought but got interrupted. Anyway.
I told him how I love this season of the year because I love the idea of a societal celebration, and that personally I'm happy and thankful for my life, which is true. I didn't do a Thanksgiving Day post because I didn't want to forget anyone/anything, but I am. My life, even with all its flaws and uncertainities and limits, is mine, and I'm alive and healthy to live it; how shall I be sad?
Also, in the vein of thinking about my past Christianity, my cabbie gave me too much change, so I gave him back the extra. Whenever someone gives me too much change I try to give them the money back so they aren't short. But I always have to convince myself to do so. I find myself wondering if I get credit for doing so or lose it for that moment of internal struggle. The religion of my youth would say I lose credit. Of course, then I wonder what kind of credit I'm thinking of anyway; the point is doing the right thing and not screwing over people who are, like me, trying to make an honest living.
I had more to say but more with the interruptions. Anyway. I have to gather together my holiday season CDs and maybe ask WD to burn me copies to bring to work. Except that the South Park CD will need heavy editing and I don't think I should play Rent here at all. Hmmm.
Maybe I'll just buy "A Very Scary Solstice" and leave it at that.
I hope I can retain this feeling for the rest of the month, because this morning I'm happy to be alive.
Having just had 5 days off might have had something to do with it, of course.
My cabbie this morning and i chatted about the "reason for the season" as it were. He told me about a Jewish couple who were his neighbors for years, and how they'd come over Christmas morning for breakfast and gifts, and he and his family would go to their place for the first night of Hanukkah. I love stories like that. When I was a kid in the church I was raised in I was taught that people don't remember "the reason for the season", which is often true, but the people they blamed for it were non-Christians who were somehow taking away from what was *really* supposed to be a Christian celebration. I find that logic severely flawed, needless to say.
I had a thread of thought but got interrupted. Anyway.
I told him how I love this season of the year because I love the idea of a societal celebration, and that personally I'm happy and thankful for my life, which is true. I didn't do a Thanksgiving Day post because I didn't want to forget anyone/anything, but I am. My life, even with all its flaws and uncertainities and limits, is mine, and I'm alive and healthy to live it; how shall I be sad?
Also, in the vein of thinking about my past Christianity, my cabbie gave me too much change, so I gave him back the extra. Whenever someone gives me too much change I try to give them the money back so they aren't short. But I always have to convince myself to do so. I find myself wondering if I get credit for doing so or lose it for that moment of internal struggle. The religion of my youth would say I lose credit. Of course, then I wonder what kind of credit I'm thinking of anyway; the point is doing the right thing and not screwing over people who are, like me, trying to make an honest living.
I had more to say but more with the interruptions. Anyway. I have to gather together my holiday season CDs and maybe ask WD to burn me copies to bring to work. Except that the South Park CD will need heavy editing and I don't think I should play Rent here at all. Hmmm.
Maybe I'll just buy "A Very Scary Solstice" and leave it at that.
