Dreams and Waking

Last night I had an actually good dream. (Most of my dreams this week have been vivid and weird and/or disturbing.) I dreamt that I had a computer program that would show me any bit of the night sky in greater and greater detail, going into three-dimensions, and it had a VR component that would let me feel asteroids, nebulae, etc. It was lovely, but eventually the immensities of space made me feel lonely, so I went to find a friend to use it with, and that's when my alarm clock rang.

Meanwhile, in waking life, I just made a medium-large mistake that has doubtless greatly annoyed my boss (we have 2 sessions of a Technical Orientation this week, Mon-Tues and Thurs-Fri. Because of a conflict with another program we're having we changed the time of one from 9 AM to 11 AM. I thought we'd changed the time of the other as well, and told people accordingly. We hadn't. And my boss is the one teaching the session. So half the people are going to show up for 11 rather than 9; I found out my mistake when it was too late to do anything about it). Whee. (I *doubt* I'll get fired for this, but...*sigh*)

I feel ill.

I wish I didn't have panic buttons that fire at the drop of a hat. I can't determine anymore what's real, or what's not. ( I may not have a job anymore by the end of the day. )

OK, Replies.

I figured it didn't make sense to try and write comments to everyone's comments. I hope I can cover everything in this. ( Read more... )

One of the Uses of a Journal

Is to put things in text, so I can look at them from outside my head.

Put into text, some of my fears look much sillier and more improbable. I mean, no one is going to yank their kid over this.

*deep breath*

I'm starting to calm down. Thank you, everyone who wrote me calmingly. Thank you double, Tigerlily, for dealing with me twice in a week. :) *big hug*

*deep breath*

My Last Entry For Today

( I promise )