Ohhh, it's NUMB3RS, that . . . actually explains everything. I've never seen the show and never been interested enough to watch it, either, but I have seen meta about it, and oh, that explains much.
The "girl" in question is Eureka, the titular figure/object of interest/object of manipulation/main character/observed figure in EUREKA SEVEN, which . . . I have gone on about at some length in the past, I believe, but never quite really delved into my adventures reading into/against the text; case in point being that very icon. Eureka is one of my favorite kinds of character, in that she is terrible at dealing with her emotions, pretends she doesn't have them and when she can't pretend pretends they mean something else entirely, spends most of her time alone and aloof, and is wracked with guilt over events she . . . could actually have stopped, come to think of it, but didn't, because she didn't comprehend enough to know why she should have, but at the same time she obsessively needs family (for reasons that would spoil the entire series if I delved into them right now), and builds herself a surrogate one that she will kill to protect. She has done bad things, for which she feels she must atone for, or else she's worth nothing, nothing at all, and there is a truly terrifying moment where she realizes that all her efforts up to that point were ineffective and, to her, useless, and she . . . does something very drastic, and barely survives.
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The "girl" in question is Eureka, the titular figure/object of interest/object of manipulation/main character/observed figure in EUREKA SEVEN, which . . . I have gone on about at some length in the past, I believe, but never quite really delved into my adventures reading into/against the text; case in point being that very icon. Eureka is one of my favorite kinds of character, in that she is terrible at dealing with her emotions, pretends she doesn't have them and when she can't pretend pretends they mean something else entirely, spends most of her time alone and aloof, and is wracked with guilt over events she . . . could actually have stopped, come to think of it, but didn't, because she didn't comprehend enough to know why she should have, but at the same time she obsessively needs family (for reasons that would spoil the entire series if I delved into them right now), and builds herself a surrogate one that she will kill to protect. She has done bad things, for which she feels she must atone for, or else she's worth nothing, nothing at all, and there is a truly terrifying moment where she realizes that all her efforts up to that point were ineffective and, to her, useless, and she . . . does something very drastic, and barely survives.