Oh Toby. Oh. Toby. I.

I feel broken open, for I know Toby and I would not have ever thought that this as his end. But the joy he experiences at it, at the very end... perhaps that is what breaks me, fully, and I sit here sobbing with great gulping breaths as I comment.

I'm okay but not fully okay. This is going to stay with me for a while, and I want to thank you for that.

(For all it breaks my heart.)